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It's only two days away... aaaahhhh! that's insanely crazy!! haha.

I'm on the killer orange team. here's a shout out to yall!

I was swimming in the Rawleigh's pool the other day with some of my siblings and with Alex. We began talking (seeing as we are corning people) about youth camp 2006. We were bashing Khaki (since it's almost not a real color) and making fun ideas for grey (such as ducktape). Alex, being the guy he is began saying how he really needed to start working on his prophetic giftings and he went on and on then he just kinda said 'I'm seeing... orange.' he didn't know that anyone from Corning was on orange or that Sean was either. we all got a kick out of it... but we shall see. .

then again, orange and khaki might tie for last. hahahaha.

I'm calling you out Grey team! (that is for Jarred's amusment)

Story of the week(end). ;-).

Saturday... I went and bought some new shoes (25 dollars).
Sunday... I played Ultimate Frisbee in my new shoes for a couple of hours
Monday... I went and worked out with Cassie... in my new shoes
Afterwards I went to the Rawleighs... in my new shoes
Then I went and played Tennis with Jessica... in my new shoes.
Suddenly! There was a huge blister on the back of my foot... and it still hurts and it's Tuesday. :-(.
The End.

I've been having a great week! How about yall?

A new post... a new day... still as full of God's grace.
I went on a personal retreat today... it was filled with a time of prayer... thinking over my life... self examinaning questions... thought provoking answers.

"I, I am He who blots out your tansgressions, for My own sake I will not remember your sin." Isaiah 43:25

"I will remember their sins and lawless deeds no more." Jeremiah 31:34

"It was now about the sixth hour, and there was darkness over the whole land until the ninth hour, while the sun's light failed. And the curtain of the temple was torn in two. Then Jesus calling out with a loud voice said, "Father, into Your hands I commit My spirit!" And having said this he breathed His last." Luke 23:44-46

Those first two verses are possible because of what Jesus did on the cross! We are complete sinners in need of THE complete Savior! Because of Jesus perfect obedience in taking on human flesh... living a perfect life... then taking all of God's wrath reserved for our sin, we can now enter into His presence. 'And the curtain of the temple was torn in two.' That curtain was a huge thick curtain... but what was behind it was the 'holy of holies'. The curtain was torn in two... Jesus made it possible for us to enter into that covered by the blood of Jesus Christ!

"Let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, with our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water." Hebrews 10:22

Our God is completely Sovereign over all of our lives... He knew before time and while He died on the cross of all we had done and what He was going to do and did for us! He thought of you when He died on that cross... He knew each and every one of us. He felt our pain... He experienced it all. So now, we can enter in with full assurance!!! Our hearts are sprinkled clean! Oh, to know that our evil hearts are clean by the blood of the perfect lamb of God!! To know we no longer have to deal with guilt (an evil conscience) because of what Christ did! He died, was was crucified and now because of His death, we live again!!

"Oh the depth of the riches and widom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are His judgments and how inscrutable His ways." Romans 11:33

Why He did it was a mystery... but we do know that He did it for His own glory... and for our good!! What a loving God!! We did not deserve anything but the complete wrath of God and hell for all eternity. But we live! We breath through the Spirit in us! We will live in Paradise with our Father forever! He is Sovereign over all!!!

Living life knowing I, a complete sinner, have THE complete Savior!

dell

Are you on the look out for Youth Camp 2006?????















Well you should be!













All are welcome






















You'll have fun... we promise...





















See ya there!!!


Pretty much really excited about Youth Camp 2006!!!! Planning on having pink hair the first day... hehehe... but mostly praying that God would be at work in everybody's heart!! That this camp would be focused on the cross and grace and not ourselves!
Here's a shout out to my dad who's not only making this possible for me and my siblings to go... but is also coming himself!!
A shout out to yall who are coming!! Can't wait to see you there!!!
Thanks for all of you guys who have put this together!!! May God bless you as I am sure we will be blessed by all of your efforts to make this a God glorifying camp!
And a shout out to all you Corning peoples who are coming!!! Jess, Alex, Jarred, Dem, Tai, Ben, Jenn, Whitney, KK, Anna, Rachael, Daniel, Joy, and me!! lol. I'm praying for all of you guys!!
And a quick shout out to my team last year and all the new people I met!! You guys rocked my world and made camp that much more fun and exciting!!

YOUTH CAMP.... say it... 'Hoorah!' lol.

peace out.
dell

A Window into my life... ;-)

This is my bed










My beautiful house!











The side door (the one friends use and the ups man)










The living room (where our late nights usually are spent)










Down stairs we go...











My bed! Yay!











This is a post mostly celebrating the finishing of my room downstairs! Thanks to all of you guys who helped complete it!

I love my house that I'm living in... I love Corning... I love the fact that God has placed me here! I'm so glad that God has given me a small taste of Home right here in Corning.

Last night I went over with Cassie to the Meiklejohns (she's watching their house) and it was just a great time to hang out and have Biblical fellowship. (hehe... and some girl time). It started off with Wendy's... no soda... lol. Then we got there... started 'You've Got Mail' which i thought was rather amusing... hope it doesn't happen to me, lol. Then we watched The Wedding Planner (which I enjoy a lot)... and admist it all, plenty of chocolate 'awws' and 'oohhs' and giggles. Afterwards (around 12:30) we went up to bed... I slept on the floor of the guest bedroom and Cassie slept in the bed (and we closed the doors so that the dumb pets wouldn't bother us). We were lying there for a little bit when I realized how hot it was and how much I wanted a different blanket when Cassie asked if I would want a different blanket... I said yes... then she blinded me by turning on the light! We got resituated. Then we talked since we were wide awake... crazy. lol. We don't know when we went to sleep, but it was at least 1:30.WHICH IS CRAZY, because we got up at 6:30 to go work out at the Y... and we did... it was crazy... hehehe. but a lot of fun! Cassie and I just talked about everything going on in my life... she was so encouraging! She completely understood everything. Cassie you're my hero!
'To chocolate or not to chocolate?'
'Is there any question?'
hahaha... good times Cassie!!

peace out.
dell

Funny story of the month (maybe even the year...).

One night, I was outside lying down on my hammock, I looked up at the beautiful stars... they were very bright and very beautiful. It was fantastic. However, the next night (at around 10:30) I was extremely tired, but I wanted to go outside because it was cooler out there. So I went outside and laid down on my hammock and looked up to the sky, expecting to see stars (now keep in mind I am very tired...). I laid out there for a while expecting that once the porch light turned off I would be able to see them... but alas and alack this was not the case. So, still extremely tired, I went inside and sat down on the blue couch... and after a minute of sitting there with a confused look on my face I see PJ's on the other couch across from me.
"Hey sixteen hundred" I call him by his smart name since he got a 1600 on his SATS. "How come I could see the stars last night and I can't see them tonight?" Remember... I'm very tired...
"Clouds." Was PJ's reply.
"No... not the clouds... the stars..." PJ gives me the look of 'you're completely crazy'
"The clouds..." He replies letting me know I'm a complete idiot for not knowing.
Finally I get it. The clouds cover the stars at night. ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

That was probably three weeks ago (maybe even more) and everybody still makes fun of me for it... lol.

peace out.
dell 

YSOS
Last night we had Y S.O.S (Youth Seeing Our Savior). It started out with scary stories of people having the dogs down the street chase their cars and Nicole had something happen to her car (i'm not exactly sure, but we have a big peice of their car in our van). Then we played Taboo (guys against girls). My team won ;-). Jarred then led us in worship (which was amazing!) We sang 'Haven't You Been Good' 'You Are My King' and 'Light Of The World' (one of my favoritest songs ever). Then group discussion! We read Chapter 11 for In Light Of Eternity... it was really tear wrenchign (I can't say sad really...). But it was about Randy Alcorn and a friend of his, Jerry, and how they grew up together and how they were inseperable, then Jerry got cancer and it was just a great story of how death isn't the end for our friendships but just an interruption... it was great. Anyhow, here are some of my notes. And we also talked about what we thought about our lives and what we'd be doing with our lives since in the chapter Randy talked about 'dreaming loftier dreams'.

In light of Eternity. Chapter 11.
He calls us to be apart of what He’s doing. To live lives according to His purposes. Passionately strive for that. Get a vision for God’s purposes in life. Our dreams should line up with His plan.
We can do anything honorable for the glory of God
Our hearts should burn for doing what God wants
It’s amazing… He wants to use our lives.
We need to dream loftier dreams. Our desires should glorify God. If we trust in God with our lives, we will bear fruit of growth.
“When I think of my life – what goes through my mind?”
No matter what we do in life, we can honor God with all we do.
Dream – whatever that looks like – connect it to and motivate it by the glory of God.
Serving Jesus is the greatest thing on earth.
What are we looking forward to about Heaven?
Friendships that go on forever… for us, death is only an interruption… in Heaven our friendships will last for eternity. We are brothers in an eternal sense.
Do I fear death? I can’t wait to see Jesus.

Then, everybody sang happy birthday for the July b-days (Mrs. Rawliegh, Beth, Jarred, Tiffany (Nicole's sister), and me). CAKE (actually, I just got icecream, chocolate!). Then we ran around looking at the Polczynski's house (which is incredible, Tai, you've spent the night here so next time it's at your house! ;-). Nicole talked about one time when Chris called from a bus station when they were on their way to Colorado and how he said there were gangsters there and that they were scared... it was funny (for us at least).

Then we talked about youth camp!!!! Oh I cannot wait! 20 days! Then we pretty much headed home. I was really tired and fell asleep then came home walked into the house, then downstairs to my room... then I went to sleep in my clothes (I was to tired to change into my pajamas).
THE END. Hope yall enjoyed!

These are notes from this past Sunday.

Death was no longer the end of life - it's the door to life for believers.
The disciples were in despair for death seemed to put out all hope. They had no hope. Their day changed with five simple words. "He is no longer here."
The resurrection changes everything.
The life changing trust of the resurrection is personal for us.
Why we life - the resurrection changes the reasons for why we live.

Must: Greek, Dae. Small word, big thing. It must happen because God has ordained it. This is God's unstoppable soverign plan.
He must but handed over to sinful men
He must die
He must rise from the dead
The unstoppable purposes are moving forward to this day.
When He saves us He saves us for a higher purpose.
Reality is what God is doing.
Sometimes being apart of God's purpose isn't seen by anybody but Him. But that's why we live. The resurrection changes the way we live. He is with us as we live for all my life. He is a risen Savior.

Was it necessary? According to God the Father... absolutely. It was His plan.

He contintues to walk with them (the disciples). They sturggle to believe it. He responds to their weak fatih with patience - He does the same for us. When we falter He does not abandom us. We fall often - it's not flattering - we take a step and fall. How wonderful to know that Christ lifts us up. We'll finally make it - but there's no possibility of doing it on our own.

The Savior empowers us to do what He calls us to do. 'And behold I am with you unto the end of the age'.

When our faith is weak - our heads are hanging low. The Savior and resurrection is shown through the word of God. Go to the word of God. Ask to have our eyes open and a fresh awareness of Him so our faith will grow strong.

The resurrection changes how we leave this life.
For those who don't believe death is despair.
Death is swallowed up in victory! (1Cor 15)
Death only takes time and time goes by
Something about death makes us face what we believe
But for the believer, it will be a day of peace - of joy. We have hope - Christ was raised from the dead.

There was a man (a pastor) who's wife had just died... he and his kids were going to her funeral where he was going to give the sermon. As they were driving along they stopped at a red light. In front of them was a huge truck and the sun was just right so that it's shadow stretched far off to the side. The man turning to his kids asked. "Which would you rather be hit by; the truck or it's shadow?" The children replied. "Its shadow of course... it doesn't hurt you." The man smiled and nodded at the simple truth.
"That's what death is like for us. Jesus took the truck... we only have the shadow. Because of that this isn't the end for mommy. She's in Heaven, and someday, we'll be able to see her".

We don't get the truck. We've only got the Shadow. May the Lord open our eyes and may the Lord put a burning in our hearts. He is with us. He is alive and one day we will see Him face to face.

~Hope everyone was blessed~

last night I went on my first formal date...




















with my daddy!!










The dress is from Jess... thanks so much! I love it!!














I'm sticking out my tongue a little in this one... but you can see the absolutely ridiculous shoes in this picture... whoever invented high heels probably needs to be shot. Horrible and totally unpracticle idea!















Dad's making sure I don't fall and die with those shoes on....











We went to Three Birds on Market Street... I got some sort of steak that was rather spicy... but good... the mash potatoes were incredible, but the cheese cake was amazing!!!
So proof that high heeled shoes are stupid... half way through the meal I had to go to the bathroom... and the restroom was upstairs... I leave and make it up the stairs okay... then I'm coming down and I nearly fell and died with those shoes on... I felt so stupid but relieved that I didn't actually fall... that would have been incredibly embarrasing!!
And we came home and watched Beauty and the Beast... a gift from my friend Joe St. Angelo... good times!

Anyhow... peace out. ;-)

dell

ps. For those going to youth camp 2006 what seminars are you going to on Thursday and Friday...???

Sixteen... most people would consider that a cool age to be... but to me... since it's where God wants me to be that's where I'm supposed to be, whether I like it or not. Sixteen... I think that's the perfect age to simply cling to the cross... nothing else. I need to let go of my dreams, my plans, my wants and desires, let Christ have them and continue to live life satisfied with whatever He's got planned.
Yes, this is something I've been struggling with. Something that God has been trying to get my attention about for a long time. And through many different things going on in my life, He now has. But it's been difficult to keep growing... actually to grow at all.
My little brother who's just started crawling was in the livingroom this morning and I was watching him while doing my devotions. He suddenly started crawling away but since I didn't want him in the next room because I wouldn't be able to see him I called out his name. He stopped, sat up and looked over at me... it was a sad look, as if in he wanted to come but wouldn't because he really did want to go on into that next room. About three times that happened, each time he got a little further away... sit up... look desperatly at me as if he really wanted to come but never started to actually move toward me... then he would begin crawling on.
Finally it kind of dawned on me that that's what it was like with me. I had for a long time wanted to grow in my spiritual life but it didn't seem like I was going anywhere. I never took that first step... all I had done was sit there and desperatly look on... then whenever I had the want to go my own way there was no second thoughts.
I need to make those steps. And only by God's grace though can that happen. I could use prayer... I'm humbled by that request because it shows exactly how much in need I am... but I do need it. Thanks everyone. By God's grace alone.

dell 

Sweet Sixteen...

I got to drive today...

Lot's and lots of flowers (especially my favorites, roses and lilies)

Campfires/smores

LONG BASEBALL game

Randomness.

over and out.


Birthday morning... all my flowers... and my precious gift








Rubia