Thursday, March 30, 2006

Unseen Horror
There is this darkness creeping about
There is this silence lifting a shout
I cannot bear this unseen horror
My heart is overtaken by this power

This fear slips into my soul
It’s utterly black and completely cold
I shiver and then I can’t stop
What is unseen is now on top

It takes me and pulls me under
To catch it is like holding thunder
I am slowly over taken by this fear
All I can do is hide and I shed a tear

Then there is no place to hide
Then there is no place to abide
I stand still, completely in despair
And then I realize… no one is there

So yes, life has been going on... the weather is beautiful!! Oh I love 70 degree weather!! 90 would be better, but I can fly with this ;).
God has been faithful! Even through all my mistakes... believe me there are many! And though I am a complete sinner... I have a complete Savior!! I am so completely blessed!!
We played Ultimate Frisbee yesterday (my team won... yipee) and that was fun! However I have a huge bruise on my arm from (name shall go unmentioned) and I'm not all about that, lol. Peaches 'n Cream opens tomorrow!! YAY!! I had to work today, that was fun (haha... um, not) but God is still good! Yeah, I can say that whenever and however I feel and it'd always be true!
Today I memorized Proverbs 3:1-9 I believe. Great passage!! I've been struggling with trusting in God with everything (God has been faithful adn I have been growing in this specefic area, which had been encouraging, however, I still could use some prayer ;-).
It has been so amazing that through all my trials God has been there for me! He has never changed (even through my everchanging feelings) and He has always been drawing me to Him!! His faithfulness truly amazes me!!

May my focus always be on Him!!!

Saturday, March 25, 2006


I'm sick... volleyball was cruel to me today... or I was being cruel to myself for playing volleyball... whatever.

Woke up and there was snow... almost cried... but it went away... and that makes me happy.

My socks stink.

I have nothing else to say.

Friday, March 24, 2006

A blonde walks into a bank in New York City and asks for the loan officer. She says she's going to Europe on business for two weeks and needs to borrow $5,000. The bank officer says the bank will need some kind of security for the loan, so the blonde hands over the keys to a new Rolls Royce. The car is parked on the street in front of the bank, she has the title and everything checks out. The bank agrees to accept the car as collateral for the loan.
The bank's president and its officers all enjoy a good laugh at the blonde for using a $250,000 Rolls as collateral against a $5,000 loan. An employee of the bank then proceeds to drive the Rolls into the bank's underground garage and parks it there. Two weeks later, the blonde returns, repays the $5,000 and the interest, which comes to $15.41. The loan officer says, "Miss, we are very happy to have had your business, and this transaction has worked out very nicely,but we are a little puzzled. While you were away, we checked you out and found that you are a multi-millionaire. What puzzles us is, why would you bother to borrow $5,000?"
The blonde replies....."Where else in New York City can I park my car for two weeks for only $15.41 and expect it to be there when I return?"
Finally, a smart blonde joke.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Always Peaceful
There is a time when I don’t feel alone
When all around is peaceful and quiet
When the light from above is shown
And I can rest from the ongoing fight

There is a time when there is Someone
Someone right there beside me
Telling me that they are the One
That will set me free

I lean on my Someone’s arm
As I listen to the waves
The sunset on my eyelids is warm
This memory I shall forever save

The peace is always here
But sometimes I just don’t remember
My Someone is there to erase my fears
Always… always and forever

Friday, March 17, 2006

It begins with the sun going down
Across the horizon dark orange and blazing red abound
The brilliance of dark and light clash
Like lightening in a storm they flash
Giving way to a dark mystery
Giving way to a dark fiery

At this point both dark and light come together
This is the moment I always treasure
Somehow it shows my thoughts and feelings
Yet just like the sunset they are fleeting
But while this view is in my sight
I will enjoy its magnificence and might

The dark background the red streaks
And the orange fiery sun makes
The story of who I am... of my life
Of the sin I was in... of all the strife
Of all the people I have hurt
Of all the ways I am dirt

Yet there is the Son that takes me
Back to the tree at Calvary
He took the hurt He look the night
And makes me have peace in His might
There are things I wish I didn't say
But the sun reminds me of the day

Sunday, March 12, 2006

After much deep and profound brain things going on in my head...
I have decided to update my blog ;-)!!

God is good and His grace is amazing!! What can I say? Only thank Him and 'More grace please!' His love for me is truly amazing!!! Why love a sinner as sinful as me? His wrath removed from me brings joy to me that is inexpressible. What a savior... what a friend... what a savior!

After the past few months God has truly shown me of my selfcenterdness... my lack of love for the gospel... my lack of love for others... my lack of thankfullness for all He has done... and that when I sin it's saying that I am not satisfied in Him... and why should I not be?! Oh that I will be satisfied only through HIM!! Grace to a sinner such as me... it strikes in me gratitude! But that that gratitude would not diminish but only grow!! That is my prayer!!

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

here's an article that's pretty interesting... just wondering what your thoughts were... please leave comments!

Furthering Feminity by Maturing Masculinity

Somewhere along the line those neighborhood boys who liked having spit contest suddenly caught our eyes as boys who could be a lot more then ‘funny, sometimes disgusting boys.’ We suddenly understood that one day they could be noble princes who sweep us off our feet and take us to our castle to care and cherish us forever.
Yet how many times have we settled for less then a prince? Why did we start eying the dirty perverse street boy? When did we start accepting dirty glances instead of a protector of innocence? Why a night fling instead of forever in a castle?
The answer is simple – there are many more street boys then princes. But what can we do as women to encourage men to want to become princes instead of street boys? That answer is also simple; we have to raise the standard of what is truly biblically acceptable as a noble prince. This world encourages us women to accept the dirty perverse street boy. We have to change that then there won’t be nearly as many men wanting to be street boys. We won’t want the street boys to be our goal. Perverse street boys must not be acceptable as any goal whatsoever!
For you guys – don’t become discouraged! We are not expecting a ‘perfect prince’ but we do pray and hope for a prince. And trust me, I know many men who have reached that crown, so I know it’s not impossible. (Oh and by the way – please don’t expect a ‘perfect princess’ either - you won’t get one… but yes, there are princesses out there and princesses in training).
Right now as young women we also have to understand that most young men out there aren’t princes yet – they’re still in training… still in the process of becoming a true prince. Our mission during this time is to start becoming princesses ourselves. As we start becoming better princesses we have to help the boys become better princes.
For us as women, it’s easy to overlook the difficulty of the training all these men are going through from opening the door to averting their eyes. They need our encouragement, our praise, our insight, our friendship, and they need us to keep pointing them to Christ! And through Christ as you continue to encourage guys to become princes, you’ll start seeing guys becoming princes!

What ways as women can we encourage guys to grow in Biblical Masculinity?

1. Dressing Modestly.
Guys struggle with ‘averting’ their eyes and glances when they should. By making sure that what we wear is covering the majority of our skin we can help guys by not having to struggle with averting their eyes to something that isn’t there. When we dress to bring attention to our body it is a clear way to say that you don’t care for their struggles!

2. Encourage
When a guy opens the door for you or helps you carry something ect. he is truly showing care as a brother to a sister in a way that proves his masculinity. Praise them – thank them – don’t throw it back in their face! Guys don’t want to help girls who don’t think they need their help.

3. Avoid Physical Contact.
Okay, this is where it can get tricky. Both guys and girls desire it, so both have to fight it (outside of marriage of course). We want guys to be as pure as possible for their wives. We have to ask ourselves if that extra hug is helping anyone.

4. Be Friendly
This means be friendly! Not anything more or less! The real question we tend to ask is ‘what’s more? Where should I draw the line?’ My answer would be that when you are in a situation within friendship and suddenly signals are carried out to a guy that might mean more then ‘just friends’ then you’ve crossed the line.

5. Pray For Guys to Grow
Obviously we can help keep guys from going astray, but only God can truly grow guys into Biblical men. We need to pray for the men around us; our brothers, friends and leaders, that God would mature them in Biblical Masculinity so that they would be able to glorify God with their manliness.

No, Dell has been 'fasting' from blogging e-mailing xanga and IMing for the past month... AKA GROUNDED... haha.

Thank you all for the comments... they were much appreciated and made my day!

Life has been going on... as usual! Hahaha!!

I have been playing volleyball... guitar... keys... and PJ has finally started this band thing so I'm learning how to sing! (and no... I'm not going to show anyone how horrible I am 'cause truly I am horrible as

I watched Pride and Prejudice last night (the one with Kiera Knightly) it's officially my favorite movie behind Beauty and the Beast!! Pride and Prejudice for my b-day *cough* *cough*. lol.

WELL HOW IS EVERYONE DOING?! AAAAAAAHHHHHH I FEEL AS IF I HAVEN'T SEEN ALL YOU GUYS IN FOREVER... wait... I haven't seen half of you ever! lol. Meaning you canadian hosers and floridians!!! haha. But hey, I still missed all you guys! If we could get as many comments for every post as I did last time that would be wicked sweet!

I'll be stickin around... lol.

dams... I've got some relient K stuff down... NOTHING worth bragging about.
Joe I'm sure is perfectly capable of playing the guitar like nobody's business.
Tai I love your love for Finding Nemo
I have no more comments to the people who left comments ;-) 'cause there were so many I'd have to go back and read them all over again.