Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Busy week. Thus the reason for no posts
Fun weekend. Hanging with Tai and Mansfieldians and Greg.
Convicting message. About loving correction.
Back to school. Trying to be excited for what God would have me learn each and ever day
Learning a lot about life. God has been showing me a lot of new things lately... it's been really neat.

The main thing would be loving Him more the anyone else ever! Here in Corning there's usually the common story of us teens wanting to grow up and get married is a common subject, and to tell the truth it's not a bad thing... we talk as friends and we get each other's input and we talk about how the Bible talks about marriage (and how we're suppose to prepare for that now). Anyhow, lately, God has been directing my thoughts to His plans... not mine. God really convicted me about saying 'After Catalyst I'm hoping to get married' because that has practically been my plan, finish highschool, go on catalyst then hopefully get married. But... what if that's not God's plan at all? What if He doesn't want me to get married ever? Is that a possibility? And the answer is that it is a possiblity that I might not get married, though I do believe that God calls me to prepare for it, that doesn't neccesarily mean that it will happen. Can I be okay with that? The answer is yes. The reason is because God is my only need. He satisfies me, He gives me life and my joy is in Him.
I've realized that I have made many 'plans' for my life... dreams this world seems to call them... and my life now has been revolving around them. Marriage could never be my complete fulfilment... that is God's role. And I've come to realize that I love Him! He is my first love! He loves me no matter what... no matter how I feel, no matter what the circumstances nothing! I have to give my dreams to God! Each and everyone of them, because He knows what's best for me and that is what He's going to plan out for me!
"But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ. Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For His sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish in order that I may gain Christ." Phil 3:8
"...but whoever loses his life for My sake shall find it." Matthew 16:25
I have to have a life purpose greater then marriage... and that is glorifying my Savior in all that I do!

Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides You"
Psalm 73:25

My First Love
Stuart Townend

first verse
My first love is a blazing fire I feel His powerful love in me
For He has kindled a flame fo passion, and I will let it grow in me
And in the night I will sing Your praise, my Love
And in the morning I'll seek Your face, my Love
And like a child I will dance in Your presence
Oh let the joy of heaven pour down on me
I still remember the first day I met You
And I don't ever want to lose that fire, my first Love
second verse
My first love is a rushing river, a waterfall that will never cease
And in the torrent of tears and laughter, I feel a healing power released
And I will draw from Your well of life, my Love
And in Your grace, I'll be satisfied my Love
third verse
Restore the years of the church's slumber, revive the fire that has grown so dim
Renew the love of those first encounters that we may come alive again
And we will rise like the dawn throughout the earth
Until the trumpet announces Your return.

My hands hold safely to my dreams
Clutching tightly not one has fallen.
So many years I’ve shaped each one
Reflecting my heart, showing who I am.
Now you’re asking me to show
What I’m holding
Oh so tightly.
Can’t open my hand; can’t let go
Does it matter?
Should I show you?
Can’t you let me go?

Surrender, surrender
You whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but can’t you see
My dreams are me,
My dreams are me

Say you have a plan for me
And that you want the best for my life.
Told me the world has yet to see
What you can do with one
That’s committed to your call.
I know of course what I should do
That I can’t hold these dreams forever.
But if I give them now to you
Will you take themAway forever?
Or can I dream again?

Declaration of Love
My dreams are in my hands
Held out to You
I know you'll take them
And use them the way You will
I know You always do what's best for me
Even if it's humbling
But here they are
Take them and shape them
I know You are in control
Here they are
Here they are
Make me into one who will always
Call to You
Who have I in Heaven but You
And on Earth there is no one like You
And once more here is a declaration
Of my love
For I love You!


Sherlock said...

Hi dell, you asked me who i was on my blog, im damis little bro, Josiah.

dell said...

I had that somewhat figured, but I didn't know for sure, and I didn't want to ask and find out you weren't lol. Hey!

joel sczebel said...

Was the font for the seeing impaired? nice big font.

but in all seriousness it was a good post.

you're sure bringing back an oldie with that Stu Townend song. Crazy. That was a huge radio hit up here. On christian radio that is.

joel sczebel said...

Why is it that it's harder to write an interesting comment to a serious post that actually has something to do with the post?

I can never figure that one out.

oh well, off to work I go.

au revoir,

Delian said...

hmm... for my computer the size is just right (the font). I'll go make it smaller, lol.

Oh man, I love that song! It's great... we sang it this past Sunday and I remembered again how much I loved it!

hahaha... how true, I understand the difficulty, though it doesn't really make sense.

You have fun at work. lol.


Delian said...


Andrew said...

I think it makes sense, serious posts are just harder and more akward to comment on. It was very good though. It's wonderful that God has been helping you to see things that way!

Sherlock said...

Wow andrew how much can you do with microsoft paint?!

damaris said...

mm. good post dell.

as for the song...well they never played it on the radio down here. but we sang it at celebration south alot, and metro occasionaly.

i know it is a crazy song...but i really like it. there is room for some not so profound songs in worship sometimes...

BUT i will never, ever say that about "the happy song".
oh my lanta.

Mattea K. said...

Celebration...Good times

dell said...

I'll tell you what!

Andrew said...

Um, a lot more than people give in credit for...