Thursday, August 26, 2010

My life in a quick nutshell


CRAZINESS.

OK. So it's not totally crazy, but it feels like it. I seriously feel like a mom whose not ready to be a mom yet! Cause I'm not! DJ won't eat dinner most of time...and it beats me how to get him to eat. Rewards to punishments, it doesn't matter...he is so much LIKE I WAS. hahaha. So, I have no idea what to do about that.

Work has been picking up, which is good, I just wish we were getting better tips :/ *sighs* people please love me. hahahaha. No. Seriously. I need to feed people.

I read Blink of an Eye again by Ted Dekker. O. My. Gosh. I love that book! It intrigues me like no other book I've ever read! Not only have I always been slightly obsessed with Saudi Arabia's history, but also with getting to the real root of who God is and what religion is.

God is love.
Religion is (seemingly, usually based in) power.
People who love are of God.
People who are of power are of themselves.

This book screams of love, REAL faith, and the power of prayer...that part gets me everytime! How Seth is able to look at Clive and say (I'm para-phrasing) 'after I prayed someone changed the possible futures I see, so what I'm saying is that prayer may be one of mankinds most powerful tools'
WOW
What a concept! It moves me to think of this.
Then when Miriam confronts Seth and tells him that just because he can't see the possible futures in his mind doesn't mean that they don't exist, and it doesn't mean that the only way they will succeed is if he knows what to do, because God knows...and He can lead us into the best future for us.
:')
this gives me hope!

So, those are some of my thoughts.
I want to love you as myself
I want to trust God with undeterred faith.
I want to pray, knowing that God is all powerful and to be moved by this!

But...moving on.
For modeling, Jim is hopefully going to be free after this week (YAY!) and then we will arrange a time for a photoshoot (probably sometime in September!) and then we'll get started! I'm really going to go after this! Giving it all I got...putting energy, time, and prayer into it. I want this. I'm going to go after it. And at the same time I want to be led by God. I want to rest in His undying love for me, His unending grace that renews me EVERY time I seek it. Ah, I wish I sought it more! That I swam in it every day. Today, today I have decided that my life will be changed. I will love you as myself, I will trust God with my whole life. And I will fully acknowledge (to all the extent that I can!) that it is because of His love for me that I can. O! and how He loves me...

The other day Josh and I went to the Y to work out, and for some reason I felt led to turn to this song. I think this is when God started moving in me this week. I almost cried with gratefulness...feeling closer to God than I had in so long...knowing that this was real worship, and it hadn't come about because of me! It was all because of God :)

"Here I am, Lord, and I'm drowning in your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
I know You've cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
'cause I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me
You're holding on to me

Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west
I don't have to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
One scarred hand to the other
From one scarred hand to the other"

So, with that, I rest my life in God's hands!
His loving tender hands...
grace...love...faith...prayer!

~Delian Jayce
P.S. God, if by any chance this is a possibility, I would totally love to play the role as Aravis from Horse and His boy and/or Miriam from Blink of an Eye...
thanks!
:) <3

38 comments:

mk said...

*smile* glad you had a good week, despite the craziness!!

jackie said...

I really love how songs can speak to us. I heard a song the other day that I've been thinking about ever since with the line, "There will be a day with no more fears...." Well, I've been singing the line and thinking and you know what??? I think it should be our everyday... today, tomorrow, everyday... As long as God is beside us, we can walk our lives with boldness, faith, joy, love...no fear.

I've been thinking about Him beside me holding my hand as I walk along the days... hmmmm

Tai Sophia said...

It was good to read a blog post by you again.
:o)
And you're going to be modeling?? That's pretty awesome. I know you'll do great...and I know God will direct you.
<3

Delian said...

Mum, that's really beautiful <3

and yes Tai, I am going to be tryign to get into modeling! Praying it works out well :) :) and thanks, I know He will too <3

jackie said...

I really miss you Del.

Delian said...

I miss you mum...<3
I have a ton of tomatoes that I don' tknow what to do with...lol

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I'm coming home tomorrow, maybe we can can some...

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