God has been teaching me a lot lately... but mostly it would be to pursue Him... desires for Him and knowledge of Him. My spiritual life has often been 'if God wants me to love Him, or to know Him more, He'll either give it to me or give the desire to pursue it in me.' So on and off I have pursued these things... but since desires for Him go away when I desire the world (and seeing as I am a sinner) I often desire the world. It has been a struggle, but one that I'm praying that God will stregthen me to continue in for as long as I live. My life has so often been 'me time' instead of focused on God... and that not only interferes with my focus on Him, but also in how I treat everyone around me... especially my family and even with my close friends. I do wish to grow, and even though sometimes I don't have a 'burning passion' for it, there is somewhat of a desire for it (focusing on God, learning about God, loving God ect). I could use some prayer... especially that I would not become discouraged when I fail, but instead humble myself before God and cry out to Him, and also that I would continue to confess my sins to others when I do sin against them...especially my family.

Thank you all so much!!!

Continuing to cling to the Cross.

dell

Here Is My Life

In my car on the road again
My head is spinning
Hoping that this isn’t a dead end
But once again my trust is slipping
Gas pedal on the floor as I take the next bend
Suddenly I’m skidding
My life flashes before me… am I dead?
My soul starts screaming
Just give me one more chance!!

Life never seems so sweet
Till it’s almost taken away from you
Death never seems such a defeat
Till it’s all you have left to do
You can’t go back and press delete
On all those mistakes that you knew
Would be right there with you
What you gonna do…
With this new concept in view?

In my new car on the highway
I am blinded by my tears
Hoping they go away
But once again the aching draws near
Break on the floor the car begins to sway
Suddenly I hear
Sirens on their way
Am I really here?
My soul begins to pray
“Father please be near!”

Life never seems so sweet
Till it’s almost taken away from you
Death never seems such a defeat
Till it’s all you have left to do
You can’t go back and press delete
On all those mistakes that you knew
Would be right there with you
What you gonna do…
With this new concept in view?

Here is my life
Here is my heart
Here’s what’s been going on deep down inside
You’ve given me a new start
So here is my life